Sunday, April 17, 2011

The Gardener

The great thing about being the sole groundskeeper to a forty-acre campus is that I spend a lot of time alone...time that I use to listen to what God has to say to me.

A few weeks ago, my pastor spoke about the necessity of pruning....a very basic sermon; one that, as a horticulturist, I tend to 'zone out' during because I know all the parallels pruning presents to our spiritual lives.  Get the bad stuff out, let in the light....yada yada yada.

But this week, I spent several hours pruning a few dozen overgrown rose bushes.  Since I know what a rose bush is 'supposed' to look like, I know that these particular specimens were in dire need of a hard pruning.  I know that.  I'm the gardener.  I'm the one who's responsible.  I'm the one who looks at these plants every single day, seeing how they look from afar, and from close-up. But last summer, do you know what people were saying about these rose bushes?   The residents and employees were raving about how beautiful the roses were, and how they had so many blooms.  These were all true assessments.  But these compliments all came in the middle of the summer, when the leaves and blooms camouflaged the inner structure of the plants.  I knew that winter would come, and the leaves would fall off, and then I could visualize what needed to be done.

So last week, I dug in.  I started cutting away at some of these 'beautiful' roses.  Only to find that under the beautiful, fruitful exterior was a framework that was riddled with death and deformation.  Instead of being vigorous and healthy, I found lots of brittle dead branches and many healthy ones that were fighting for light and air.

Cutting out the dead part is the obvious thing to do.  Even a 'non-gardener' could figure that out.  A good gardener knows when it's necessary to cut out some of the good parts.  Two good branches will cross one another, rubbing away the tender new flesh, which leads to disease of the entire plant.  And sometimes a branch is growing and flowering, but it's growing in the wrong direction.  As a gardener, I must analyze which of the branches to cut, and which to leave.

Getting the bad stuff out of my life is the no-brainer.  Sinful, indulgent, undisciplined behavior has no place in the life of a Christ follower.  But what about all the good stuff?  What about the stuff that looks beautiful...  the stuff that has lots of blooms  ....  the stuff that everyone is complimenting?  I have to leave all of those things to the Gardener.  Because the Gardener sees the big picture.  He sees if one good thing is suffocating another.  He knows which good things should stay, and which ones should be cut out.  And I must remember that in the spring, I'll be a healthier, more fruitful plant if I let the Gardener do His job.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Deletable

     I currently work at a retirement community.  There are about 200 residents, all over 65 years old.  When a resident moves to into the community, they are given an 'emergency pendant.'  This pendant is wired so that, if pressed, it will transmit a signal so that the proper personnel can attend to the emergency.  I am responsible for programming these pendants, making sure they work properly, and updating information into our main computer.

     When a resident moves into a facility with a higher level of care or (more often) passes away, their name must be deleted from the system, and the old pendant is reset for the next resident who may use it.  Last week, it made me unbelievably sad to 'delete' a resident.  This particular resident was never married, had no children, and was old enough (93-years old) that all her friends had passed away before her.  Nieces and nephews came in the day after she passed and threw away most of her belongings, taking only things that they could utilize.  Nothing seemed to be sentimental to them.  They were only acting as a clean-up crew.  After the 'family' was finished, they gave me her emergency pendant.  I logged onto the main computer, selected the resident's name, and hit delete.  Finished.

    The scenario made me sad.  And then it made me think. When I'm 92, or 72, or 32, I don't want to be deletable.  I want to make an impact on someone or something that can't be erased.  I want to exist beyond death.  My Christian faith screams that I should be making a bigger impact in the name of Jesus.  My philanthropic heart tugs inside me, nudging me to adopt an orphan or mentor a delinquent. My aspiring intellectual brain tells me I should contribute to medicine or science, or some other worthy cause.  It doesn't really matter what the effect is.  It just matters that I do some affecting.  That I etch my name onto this planet in some way, shape, or form.  Because I don't want to be deleted when I'm gone.